There is a phenomenon that God lets us experience that give us a taste of what our senses will experience in heaven. This overwhelmingly intoxicating experience is truly a divine gift. This experience starts with gaining a deep sense of intimacy with each other. Really opening our hearts to each other becoming totally vulnerable, totally connected, totally naked, a place where there are no secrets.
We begin settle into a very holy place. A place where the heavens meet this awful world. God comes to meet us with his unsurpassed Love. Here He lets us experience co-creating with Him in this divine act of totally coming together. As our talks deepen we feel drawn to touch each other, we begin to kiss. Our lips touch softly we look into each other’s eyes wanting to know each other’s soul secrets. In this closeness the world around us disappears, we have arrived in this place where our souls and hearts can join together that rib God removed to make Eve is replaced and we are made whole once again.
This is not sex but making love, big difference. As we continue to kiss and breath we notice something different. Each breath through our nose and mouth draws in something peculiar yet familiar. It's not a smell but a stream of energy which when processed through our lungs and nose enlivens our connection to each other drawing us deeper into each others souls and hearts. It is so powerful it makes each of our physical bodies sing with an aliveness. Again its not a scent but an energy, a force. It give us what I call love fuel it fans the fires deep within each of us. The energy is so strong at times I think it will suffocate me.
This must be what heaven will do to our senses upon the death of our bodies. Maybe this is a brief glimpse of what eternity with Him will be like, so intense, so beautiful, so good, so amazing, so worth all the pain of this world. May you breath each other in, may you experience the Love of God in Worshiping Him through this gift.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Where I am at today!
A letter to a friend this week reads:
All is well in the war over my heart and the hearts of my family and friends. I still listen to both Piper and Boyd. I enjoy the two points of view. I love Greg Boyd for his view of the Warrior Jesus who came to save us and show us how to fight the real battle for our hearts and how evil so is present in our lives. I love John Piper for his solid theology and reverence. I don’t get too caught up in any one preacher. My faith is not based upon any preacher, pastor or priest. These are men with their own beliefs and take on God’s word. I find little comfort in religion or denominational churchs. I find my relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit much more grounded in the Word and in talking, praying and watching God at work in my life and in those around me. Life to me now is much different; it is all Spiritual, it is all about evil and good(love) nothing in between. I don’t DO Christianity, I walk with God and try to do what he ask me to do. I try to live like Christ somehow and read how he said to do life, to do life from the heart and build his kingdom. I find no value in rational thinking, I find value in love. Where that takes me I have not a clue I just try to live differently as did Jesus.
In Service for God!
All is well in the war over my heart and the hearts of my family and friends. I still listen to both Piper and Boyd. I enjoy the two points of view. I love Greg Boyd for his view of the Warrior Jesus who came to save us and show us how to fight the real battle for our hearts and how evil so is present in our lives. I love John Piper for his solid theology and reverence. I don’t get too caught up in any one preacher. My faith is not based upon any preacher, pastor or priest. These are men with their own beliefs and take on God’s word. I find little comfort in religion or denominational churchs. I find my relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit much more grounded in the Word and in talking, praying and watching God at work in my life and in those around me. Life to me now is much different; it is all Spiritual, it is all about evil and good(love) nothing in between. I don’t DO Christianity, I walk with God and try to do what he ask me to do. I try to live like Christ somehow and read how he said to do life, to do life from the heart and build his kingdom. I find no value in rational thinking, I find value in love. Where that takes me I have not a clue I just try to live differently as did Jesus.
In Service for God!
Friday, June 20, 2008
Sex Part II: A Divine Rejoining
Do we not experience a profound deep sense of a rejoining when having sex/making love to a women? This all came to me in what Moses and Jesus taught us about “becoming one flesh”. Moses explains this to us in the creation story in the Bible.
19 Now the LORD God had formed out of the ground all the beasts of the field and all the birds of the air. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them; and whatever the man called each living creature, that was its name. 20 So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds of the air and all the beasts of the field. But for Adam no suitable helper was found. 21 So the LORD God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. 22 Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. 23 The man said, "This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called 'woman,' for she was taken out of man." 24 For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh. (Genesis 2:19-24 NIV)
Jesus reaffirmed Moses in Matthew 19:4-6
4 "Haven't you read," he replied, "that at the beginning the Creator 'made them male and female,' 5 and said, 'For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh'? 6 So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate." (NIV)
In the act of sexually worshiping each other we get to experience the rejoining of that missing piece that God withdrew from each on of us men. As we unite our flesh in this pure act of worshiping our creator, God lets us go back to how he created us in the beginning, taking a piece of Adam(us men) to create Eve(you women). Making love to each other gives us the opportunity for a moment to replace the missing piece within us, thus completing what was once lost long ago. We get to relive part of God’s creation story in the intimate act of sex. Ths missing piece may be the root of our internal sexual drive not only to create new life but to replace this missing piece. How else do we describe where this urge or need comes from? We don’t know what drives us so passionately and strongly but this need/urge does not go away until we have been reunited with our own Eve, who holds our missing piece. Our hearts long for each other to dive deeply into the purely intimate sexual act of rejoining and becoming one again with each other. For God wants this union to be a special one, one out of love, commitment, and joy.
This rejoining is so deep, it does produce laughter but brings on a feeling of holiness, of gratitude, and amazement or better put ecstasy that something so wonderful could feel this good. Webster’s dictionary defines ecstasy as “rapture from the contemplation of divine things”. Don’t you think our divine creator God wants us to have a divine contemplation of the eternal life with Him? Maybe it’s through this uniting of our hearts in the act of sex that God whispers into our hearts this secret that not many of us fail to hear. Once you have really listened to Him and have heard the secret you so would love to tell everyone, but you just cannot find the human words to express it to the next person. It is such a big secret God wants us to keep it safe within the context of marriage and not to share it with just a random person. It is so deep and profound, to share it with an acquaintance or friend would be reducing sex to a physical act of pleasure much like drinking a glass of water when you’re thirsty. Is not sex so so much more than just satisfying a bodily function or control need? See Part I: A Divine Gift
19 Now the LORD God had formed out of the ground all the beasts of the field and all the birds of the air. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them; and whatever the man called each living creature, that was its name. 20 So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds of the air and all the beasts of the field. But for Adam no suitable helper was found. 21 So the LORD God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. 22 Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. 23 The man said, "This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called 'woman,' for she was taken out of man." 24 For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh. (Genesis 2:19-24 NIV)
Jesus reaffirmed Moses in Matthew 19:4-6
4 "Haven't you read," he replied, "that at the beginning the Creator 'made them male and female,' 5 and said, 'For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh'? 6 So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate." (NIV)
In the act of sexually worshiping each other we get to experience the rejoining of that missing piece that God withdrew from each on of us men. As we unite our flesh in this pure act of worshiping our creator, God lets us go back to how he created us in the beginning, taking a piece of Adam(us men) to create Eve(you women). Making love to each other gives us the opportunity for a moment to replace the missing piece within us, thus completing what was once lost long ago. We get to relive part of God’s creation story in the intimate act of sex. Ths missing piece may be the root of our internal sexual drive not only to create new life but to replace this missing piece. How else do we describe where this urge or need comes from? We don’t know what drives us so passionately and strongly but this need/urge does not go away until we have been reunited with our own Eve, who holds our missing piece. Our hearts long for each other to dive deeply into the purely intimate sexual act of rejoining and becoming one again with each other. For God wants this union to be a special one, one out of love, commitment, and joy.
This rejoining is so deep, it does produce laughter but brings on a feeling of holiness, of gratitude, and amazement or better put ecstasy that something so wonderful could feel this good. Webster’s dictionary defines ecstasy as “rapture from the contemplation of divine things”. Don’t you think our divine creator God wants us to have a divine contemplation of the eternal life with Him? Maybe it’s through this uniting of our hearts in the act of sex that God whispers into our hearts this secret that not many of us fail to hear. Once you have really listened to Him and have heard the secret you so would love to tell everyone, but you just cannot find the human words to express it to the next person. It is such a big secret God wants us to keep it safe within the context of marriage and not to share it with just a random person. It is so deep and profound, to share it with an acquaintance or friend would be reducing sex to a physical act of pleasure much like drinking a glass of water when you’re thirsty. Is not sex so so much more than just satisfying a bodily function or control need? See Part I: A Divine Gift
Monday, June 09, 2008
Sex Part I: A Divine Gift
God gave us sex as a gift which bonds a woman and a man together to create a union of our hearts and souls out which we are given a role in Co-Creating with Him. Sex is holy which we have learned that being Holy is entering into God’s Love. This act of Love is co creating with God therefore is not something to take lightly. So sex is a Holy act. Secondly, God created sex as a way for us to share ourselves completely with one another, to become totally naked, vulnerable, and open to one another. Sex when shared and honored in this way becomes truly an act of worshiping God. This is what true worship looks like, to worship our creator God and one another at a super intimate level.
Sex in its purest form is so intoxicating and deep that we can only linger in the moments before during and after an orgasm for minutes. As we become one flesh (Matthew 19:4-6) in those moments we melt into each other giving us the act of pure union meant for a marriage only. When we make the first penetration into the woman we both feel this utterly amazing feeling of “ah” it is that moment we say no verbally to each other “I love You”. This act ties our souls and hearts together in a way we may never fully understand. I do know this we cannot share this intimacy, this bond with more than one person at a time. I do believe there are differences between a man and a women in how each experiences this union. For us men the act of entering into a women with our flesh while having her flesh wrap is like diving into pool of perfectly tempered crystal clear spring water. We immerse soul into hers. This is very different from the woman’s point of view. For her it is an invitation to the man to come in, to open her heart and soul like a door that is being unlocked and as we enter the room where she says none verbally “come deep into me” and she provides you that look that you just found something out so deeply about her that words cannot describe it. In this time we are completely together even though how we got here was different for each but now as we are heart and souls one flesh one body bound together are inclination to finish kicks in. We want to finish it, have an orgasm. Now little time is left, for the finish of an orgasm is minutes away ending our union. I suppose God made it this way because most of us would if given a choice would stay in that feeling, that union forever and we would not get any sleep or anything else done that day.
As we progress towards the finish of the union we worship each other through each movement and each sensation. This in and out movement representing song we are singing to each other. As the orgasm approaches something more profound takes place this heightened sensitivity brings us that feeling of “I would do anything for you and this love and nothing in this world matters”. Our concentration is so focused and so intense nothing can stop it. We now are at the climatic end. We call it a climax for a reason for what is about to be unleashed in the orgasm is life creating and soul bearing. I can only speak towards the male orgasm for that is my only internal experience in which I can reflect upon. As we start to ejaculate the impulse and reaction is to thrust as deep into her as I can. Trying to pull out at this point is so counter intuitive to do so ends something so abruptly it takes discipline most of us don’t have and it why we should teach our young people that this is not a good form of birth control. This sense of driving deep into her can only mean I am putting something so special so profound and meaningful, I want it to go to the depths of her heart where she will remember my soul and keep it locked away telling no one else this secret, this intimate detail of my being. In the midst of this explosion of love something else is going on. A release of life that when combined with her life with the help of God will form another child of God. This love explosion then puts God’s creation capabilities into action. It is much like a prayer but instead of verbal or through a thought this prayer is a physical one. It says to God here you go we want to create a human being in the image of you Lord and hey can you make this child of yours look like Mom and Dad?
So it is finished we lay there together in a heap of sweat and bodily fluid looking at each other with such satisfaction and love for we cannot fathom a better place to be in those moments. We know then that something of that union stays with us forever only to be broken when we choose to break this bond by loving another in that same way. To reduce this amazing act of worship to just something pleasurable would be a travesty and false as to the power of this immeasurable gift from God. This is what true worshiping of God should look like! Thank you Lord for this gift, this glimpse of Heaven and what true union feels like. Continued Sex Part II: A Divine Rejoining
Sex in its purest form is so intoxicating and deep that we can only linger in the moments before during and after an orgasm for minutes. As we become one flesh (Matthew 19:4-6) in those moments we melt into each other giving us the act of pure union meant for a marriage only. When we make the first penetration into the woman we both feel this utterly amazing feeling of “ah” it is that moment we say no verbally to each other “I love You”. This act ties our souls and hearts together in a way we may never fully understand. I do know this we cannot share this intimacy, this bond with more than one person at a time. I do believe there are differences between a man and a women in how each experiences this union. For us men the act of entering into a women with our flesh while having her flesh wrap is like diving into pool of perfectly tempered crystal clear spring water. We immerse soul into hers. This is very different from the woman’s point of view. For her it is an invitation to the man to come in, to open her heart and soul like a door that is being unlocked and as we enter the room where she says none verbally “come deep into me” and she provides you that look that you just found something out so deeply about her that words cannot describe it. In this time we are completely together even though how we got here was different for each but now as we are heart and souls one flesh one body bound together are inclination to finish kicks in. We want to finish it, have an orgasm. Now little time is left, for the finish of an orgasm is minutes away ending our union. I suppose God made it this way because most of us would if given a choice would stay in that feeling, that union forever and we would not get any sleep or anything else done that day.
As we progress towards the finish of the union we worship each other through each movement and each sensation. This in and out movement representing song we are singing to each other. As the orgasm approaches something more profound takes place this heightened sensitivity brings us that feeling of “I would do anything for you and this love and nothing in this world matters”. Our concentration is so focused and so intense nothing can stop it. We now are at the climatic end. We call it a climax for a reason for what is about to be unleashed in the orgasm is life creating and soul bearing. I can only speak towards the male orgasm for that is my only internal experience in which I can reflect upon. As we start to ejaculate the impulse and reaction is to thrust as deep into her as I can. Trying to pull out at this point is so counter intuitive to do so ends something so abruptly it takes discipline most of us don’t have and it why we should teach our young people that this is not a good form of birth control. This sense of driving deep into her can only mean I am putting something so special so profound and meaningful, I want it to go to the depths of her heart where she will remember my soul and keep it locked away telling no one else this secret, this intimate detail of my being. In the midst of this explosion of love something else is going on. A release of life that when combined with her life with the help of God will form another child of God. This love explosion then puts God’s creation capabilities into action. It is much like a prayer but instead of verbal or through a thought this prayer is a physical one. It says to God here you go we want to create a human being in the image of you Lord and hey can you make this child of yours look like Mom and Dad?
So it is finished we lay there together in a heap of sweat and bodily fluid looking at each other with such satisfaction and love for we cannot fathom a better place to be in those moments. We know then that something of that union stays with us forever only to be broken when we choose to break this bond by loving another in that same way. To reduce this amazing act of worship to just something pleasurable would be a travesty and false as to the power of this immeasurable gift from God. This is what true worshiping of God should look like! Thank you Lord for this gift, this glimpse of Heaven and what true union feels like. Continued Sex Part II: A Divine Rejoining
Saturday, May 24, 2008
The the following is a compilation of passages of The New Testament using the verses 10:10. This number sequence I have used for years going back to the sports number 10 I used on many jerseys. I hope this speaks to my story and my life to come taken through God's Divine word.
Do not take along any gold or silver no bag for the journey. Who divorces his wife and marries another woman. The kingdom of God is near. May have life, and have it to the full. He saw heaven opened. It is with your heart that you believe. Who trusts in him will never be put to shame. And do not grumble warnings for us, on whom the fulfillment of the ages has come. We will be in our actions when we are present. We have been made holy through the sacrifice of the body of Jesus Christ, take away sins. You must prophesy again about many peoples.
Do not take along any gold or silver no bag for the journey. Who divorces his wife and marries another woman. The kingdom of God is near. May have life, and have it to the full. He saw heaven opened. It is with your heart that you believe. Who trusts in him will never be put to shame. And do not grumble warnings for us, on whom the fulfillment of the ages has come. We will be in our actions when we are present. We have been made holy through the sacrifice of the body of Jesus Christ, take away sins. You must prophesy again about many peoples.
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